Like anyone with a strong visual bent, I keep a scrapbook of pictures I come across, and want to keep for reference and inspiration purposes. As all of these are found on the Web these days, I use a digital scrapbook. In my case, it's Evernote, but I'm sure there are similar packages that can do the job just as well. In fact, there might well be something better out there: the trouble is, like so many software packages, Evernote's developers have ambitions for it to become something more – yet another does-it-all multi-user one-stop organiser for busy worker bees – but all I want is a digital scrapbook to dump my cuttings in plus the occasional note, thanks very much. It's ironic, really: they think I might leave them for another package if they don't keep shoving new stuff at me, but that's precisely why I might.
Anyway, one thread that connects a number of the things I've dumped in there is that they relate to my home town, Stevenage, a "New Town" begun in the post-War optimism of the late 1940s (I know, I know... I think I may have mentioned this just once or twice before, and I'm sure this won't be the last time...). A few of these are aerial views of the town in its pristine, just-built state. It looks so neat from up there that it could be a scale model of the town, rather than the real thing. Pete Seeger's condescending song "Little Boxes", heard so often on the radio in the mid-60s, comes to mind. Although we actually rather liked our little boxes, which were all made of good solid brick, not "ticky tacky", whatever that is, so fuck you and your stupid banjo, Pete.
In my mind, I can still walk those streets and play in those fields and woods just as I did for the twenty or so years I lived there, before finally leaving home for life in older, dirtier cities with more complicated stories to tell. The one above, for example, was my immediate neighbourhood from about 1957 until 1964, ages 3 to 10. As we were the first occupants of our house in Peartree Way, this must have been taken around 1956/7. How white the pavements are, how neatly uniformly the houses stand in their rows, and how few cars there are to be seen!
Obviously, there are also none of today's typical custom add-ons like stone cladding, porches, conservatories, loft extensions, and front gardens paved over to accommodate more cars; at least, not yet. Back then the council (actually, the Development Corporation) didn't allow alterations, and every house here, and in the entirety of the New Town, was rented from them. Before, that is, Thatcher gave everyone the "right" to buy their council house, and the whole idea of decent social housing for all at a fair rent was wrecked forever. So fuck you, too, Maggie.

And here is the neighbourhood of my teenage years, 1967-73. We lived on the fourth floor (fifth in US terms) of that large block of flats with its tall white chimney: Chauncy House, named after
Henry Chauncy, a local antiquarian. It seems those flats, now demolished, were the very first part of the New Town to be built, in order to accommodate the architects and supervisory types who planned and managed the vast scheme of construction. No doubt they had all returned to Hampstead or settled in some nearby village once the job was well under way.
I never really knew those streets with the same intimacy as those around Peartree Way. Only free-range children roaming and playing outdoors get to know every nook and cranny of their patch in the way the local cats and dogs do: doors and gates were rarely locked, and we'd be in and out of each other's houses and gardens all day long. But as a restless adolescent in those flats I mainly wanted to escape the tedium of home life whenever possible to wherever the action was: friends' houses, youth clubs, pubs, and music venues –
even the public library was more exciting – and later there were the secluded rural "tied" cottages occupied by some lively lads who'd left school at the first opportunity to become farm hands, and where an all-night "scene" would flourish over the weekend.
I know... You may well wonder at my continuing obsession with this small town of no great intrinsic interest beyond its network of cycle paths, the progressive spirit of its foundation, and its subsequent betrayal and decline. Not least because I left it at the first opportunity myself and never went back, other than for parental visits, kept as brief as possible: two nights good, one night better. The name "Stevenage" itself has since become a byword for "nowheresville" in Britain, and a handy punchline for any joke about "chavs" and white-van drivers. So, yes, it is a little odd, I admit. Our children, born and raised in the historic port of Southampton – on the face of it a rather more interesting place – could not care less about their home city: they're Londoners now!
But something about our nowhere town seemed either to repel or to draw us back with equal force. It surely couldn't just have been the presence of "family", although it is true that some of us did have Appalachian quantities of parents, grandparents, siblings, uncles, aunts, and cousins scattered liberally about the place: nourishing for some, toxic for others. In the end, I suppose it might simply come down to the difference between those who said, "There are worse places to live than Stevenage", and those who replied, "Yes, but there must be much better places to live, too!"
In the "repulsion" camp I have pals and playmates who, in the venerable expression, have shaken the dust of Stevenage from their feet, and put the greatest possible geographic distance between themselves and our town (although often from "Britain and the British", too). They enjoy expatriate lives in France, Greece, the United States, Canada, even South Africa and Australia, and I doubt they give a second thought to the scenes of their New Town years, and if they do, it will not be with any great pleasure. Certainly, none are blogging about the place or downloading old postcards and photographs with a certain obsessiveness.
But then there are those who somehow failed to escape the town's gravitational pull, and ended up walking the same old streets, maybe even living in the same old house if their parents had managed to buy it. One of my very oldest friends abandoned a promising social-work career in angry despair – he "retired hurt" as they say in cricket – and retreated into semi-monastic, off-grid isolation in a flat in one of the town's largest tower-blocks. Another, after a disastrous life of serial failures, homelessness and imprisonment, returned home to live out his final years in a small council bedsit, still sufficiently sound of mind and devoted to all things Stevenage to help edit a
website dedicated to its history and nostalgic reminiscences. Others simply never left, of course, tied to the town by the conventional bonds of friends, family, work, and (it has to be said) complacency and inertia.
Whatever, I seem to have fallen somewhere between the two extremes: I left home for good in 1977, but have never stopped thinking about the place.

Setting aside any egotistic over-regard for the facts of one's own life (as if!), the best explanation I can offer for my constant return to the subject is that I have unfinished business. We were the children of a great utopian experiment, the very first New Town, of which an important element was the intention not just to house but to create strong local communities for people who had abandoned the blitzed slums of London. They had a common desire to start a new life, one as far away from the hierarchies, miseries, and disadvantages of their old life as possible. Added to their number were the construction labourers who had built the place and decided to stay and raise families, plus those fleeing the "idiocy of rural life" in nearby villages [1], which created a rich, if occasionally volatile mix. Here, finally, were to be the "homes fit for heroes" promised after the First World War.
For the best part of three decades it worked, too. We New Town natives grew up in the understanding that community mattered: in the words on the town council's coat of arms, "The heart of a town lies in its people". More specifically, it lies in those people who can be bothered to show up and take part. My grandmother, for example, a veteran trades unionist (she had been "mother of the chapel" at publisher J.M. Dent), ran the town's Over-60s Club. Several construction-union activists were prominent town councillors and at least one, Alf Luhman, became mayor. During the long school summer vacations Play Leadership schemes were run by volunteers such as my sister, who did their best to keep us youngsters out of trouble. As did the various churches with their youth clubs and societies; again, my mother was captain of the Girls' Life Brigade troop at our local Baptist church.
But in the late 1970s it all began to crumble; or rather, it was undermined by political malevolence, and toppled by the inward-looking, self-centred spirit of the times. All things communitarian had begun to seem unfashionably earnest, a bit too churchy: frumpy folk arranging jumble sales and home-made cake stalls, running clubs, mimeographing and distributing newsletters, and attending tedious meetings in draughty community centre halls, which always seemed to be timed to clash with the good stuff on TV. So boring.
It is perhaps unsurprising, then, that some of us – having been given the massive mobility leg-up of good schools and life-enhancing opportunities – find ourselves looking back, pondering how things might have turned out if this experiment in social engineering had been allowed to continue and encouraged to spread out across the country, rather than killed off just as we, its first-born generation, were coming into maturity. It is as if some promised inheritance had been stolen, just as my father's pension was stolen when in the 1970s Tube Investments took over and dismembered the Stevenage engineering firm where he had worked for decades, George W. King, making him and seven hundred others redundant. As I say, unfinished business.

So you'll have to forgive me if I seem to go on a bit about a place most people will, at best, have merely glimpsed as they speed past on the motorway or on a train heading into London, or laughed at as some lazy comedian's punchline because, well, it's that sort of place, Stevenage, isn't it? And perhaps it is, now, but it didn't use to be; once, it was a special place, a modest beacon of hope, where I had the great good fortune to be born and brought up.
However, "never go back" is very wise counsel, and I don't suppose I ever will go back: instead, I can indulge in time-travel and a bit of Blakean "mental fight" through the medium of old pictures like these, downloaded into my digital scrapbook. Stevenage has changed, I've changed, the world has moved on. Besides, pretty much everything I remember has since been demolished, built over, renovated, or repurposed. There are already so many ghosts hanging around the place, I'd just be another revenant looking for somewhere, something, or someone to haunt. In the end, my "unfinished business" is also Britain's unfinished business, and will remain unfinished until there is a substantial change in the political weather of our country. It could be a very long wait.
I also remain unconvinced that some return encounters are a necessary form of "closure", as we like to say these days, or might even turn out to be a revelation of sorts, waiting for us at the end of the road:
We shall not cease from exploration
And the end of all our exploring
Will be to arrive where we started
And know the place for the first time.
Through the unknown, unremembered gate
When the last of earth left to discover
Is that which was the beginning;
At the source of the longest river
The voice of the hidden waterfall
And the children in the apple-tree
Not known, because not looked for
But heard, half-heard, in the stillness
Between two waves of the sea.
from "Little Gidding", by T.S. Eliot
Well, maybe. These are fine, evocative words, much quoted by people who crave a mystical fix, but I don't think Eliot had anywhere like my home town in mind, and AFAIK never did return to his own starting point, St. Louis, Missouri, either. Maybe the gate he had in mind was the gate back into Eden? If so, lots of luck with that.
But when I consider that skeletal clock tower in the Town Square that appears in so many images of Stevenage, cooling its feet in the pool where we used to sit on the wall idling away the sunny afternoons, surrounded by shops that had seemed such solid pillars of ordinary, everyday life – Woolworths, W.H. Smith, the Co-Op, all now long-gone – I realise that it does still stand for something. If only as a defiant sixty-foot finger to all those who resisted, and still would resist the construction of New Towns; something that, to my surprise, is now back on the government agenda, in name, if not in spirit.
In fact, to my even greater surprise, it seems that both the tower and the pool it stands in were actually "listed" in 1998, to protect them from the predations of the developers, and the whole Town Square itself has been placed on the
Heritage At Risk Register, for whatever that is worth. Not much, I suspect.
But what a shame nobody thought to do something similar for our true heritage before it could be stolen from us and sold off, house by house, until Stevenage was no longer a bold new idea, but just another run-down nowhere satellite town, thirty miles from London.
Summer 1972...
1. A phrase from the Communist Manifesto. Apparently this is a mistranslation: the German word "Idiotismus" does not mean "idiocy" ("Idiotie" in German) but something more like "isolation from the general community". Although, TBH, it was more the intrusive and unrelenting busybodiness of rural life that caused many village folk to flee to the brightly-lit, well-provisioned anonymity of town life, which was perhaps a foreshadowing of the way the community-building project would collapse back into thousands of atomised TV-watchers and screen-gazers.